a sudden feeling that my life is so much in a mess now.
and that i should do some housekeeping. hmm

1st is all about the homework,tests and the i-don't-really-like mdm jiang.
think i'm gonna fail my 2 recent common test which is so gona demoralise me. tsk. but nvm, i'll learn from mistakes and pia for O's after bball. next,the homework are like filling the whole entire SPO box for the day. and sometimes i'm just too tired to complete all that homework, so i set an alien time like 4.30am to wake up to do but i always fail to do so. and guess what, mrs raj is now threatening us that if we don't pass up homework on time, straight to the dentention table. yeayeayea. go paint more red tables then. and for boys who subsequently do so are to get caning. tts like =.=
and and and, mdm jiang. i just simply don't know why i don't like her! thinking of the immature me who used to dislike ms lie, what an idiot i am.

2nd is about balling stuffs.
thou we won the last match against STC, i still feel that we're still not playing up to our standard. i'm not talking big here or what, but just some reflections. and i'm feeling so damn clumsy and lousy in court these days. 'm so disappointed with myself totally. why...... aaarrrggghhhhhh... but its you people, yes you girls who just keep me going on. cause i want to spend these last few months meaningfully with u all. and yes, coach.
and it's so true that the rain keeps our morale high! (:
i can't bear to leave u all, really. i don't want that day to come.

its just simply very irritating when someone starts asking you about certain stuff, and when u gave your ans and want some ans back too, the person simply tells you "i'll tell u next time"
cause next time never comes.
whatever, i shouldn't let these kinda stuff bother me anymore. =/

at times i really wonder how should i be as a person.
after 16 years, i began to reflect upon myself as a human being.
i'm not what i thought i would be after all.
remember me as an inperfection
why? i'll tell you why:
i once really like performing violin in front of others, but of now--nothing.
i once won an art competition and was given a scholarship but yet i'm not taking art for the O's.--this chance could have been given to another friend of mine who was really good too.
i really liked swimming, but i gave up after failing the minor sector of the final exam-- cowardice.
and there are still LOADS of them.

remember, me asking u guys on how should i improve myelf?
yet you guys said nothing at all.
i really need those answers.
if not then tell me why am i feeling this way right now.

ARGH!